So I totally haven't been drawing much, if I do, it's just little doodles. I put one thing in scraps (does anyone even look at those?)

Uhm... There was Yaoi-con that happened... here's link to the con report: [link]

Life's still shitty. Still no job. Going on 10 months... with X-mas (our lease ending on X-mas *fake yay*) coming up with us still not a place. How could we secure somewhere when Jin's the only one with a job.

People told me one in every 10 jobs you apply you'll get a response. Apparently with the 20% unemployment in the Bay Area, that's not true, as there are way more qualified and experienced people than me going to even shitty jobs like Taco Bell. :\ I'm trying hard. But guh.

Thus the reason why I haven't been drawings or even writing anything (though I've thought a few). Though I have a few trades I'm doing with people, so that'll get me going. (as I think you've seen?)

Been thinking of changing my von Karma icon to Asch. But each time I look at VK I feel sad that I want to change him for someone MUCH younger. D: Maybe I wont'

Bottom line? For drawing. Where's my inspiration? And why do I only feel inspired when I am driving and thus cannot draw. D:

So. I thought I'd say a journal again.

I noticed ALOT of the art in here is really badly scanned. I'm going to be going through my gallery probably sometime and deleting alot of the older art - as it's an eyesore for me. I'm also going to probably get those badly scanned images a facelift so they aren't gray and have white lines everywhere.

I haven't been drawing all that much unfortunately, and I really should do it. Just a huge lack of drive really.

Yesterday marked 6 months of being jobless (and since the surgery too! ) so I'm still pretty bummed out.

Yaoi-con is in 3 months (actually alittle less) so Jin and I need to get our cosplay together and redo what needs to be done. Jin's actually willingly cosplaying too. :3 Luke fon Fabre from Tales of the Abyss -- so she'll be the Luke to my Asch <3 Of course she hates that pairing, but is still going to be doing it <3 Makes me happy.

So yeah. I'll try to start being artsy again. Just hard when you're so depressed that you're switching moods almost every hour.

MY MOOD IS NOT EXCITED. I IS VERY TIRED. STUPID DA


So I totally forgot to link to the con report didn't I? So here it is: [link]
Yes it is Safe-for-work. (SFW)

I haven't been really drawing either, so please forgive me on that. I do have a few cosplay pictures in which I very need to put up. Oh and I just did put one that REALLY needs to go up.

Maybe I might start drawing again? I don't know. :\

Had to cancel going to Anime Expo due to financial issues -- and just being mature about it really. I'm very very sorry to everyone who I was going to hang out with.

Please take pictures and send them, and hopefully I'll see you at Yaoi-con'09? I know we're going to Fanime'10... and we might try for AX'10. (And I'll be going to FC'10 as well... but you know that's uhm.. furry. )

Oh. I beat Tales of the Abyss. LOVE THE GAME. If you haven't played it-- YOU SHOULD.
Now playing Tales of Symphonia. XD I'm going back in game release time.

Thanks to a few people of ... I decided to play Tales of the Abyss after finishing Devil Summoner. And now? I want to cosplay Asch the Bloody.

Why hello Fanime, you're coming up pretty close. I haven't even touched the cosplay, sides being all "zomg VK I really need to do something" and petting the wig.

So here I am, now wanting to try to make (without a sewing machine... or even needle and thread!) all this cosplay since I have time. What is wrong with me. XD

So I guess I should be trying to find a sewing machine, and what material would be good enough to actually make durable and good looking cosplay (it's really time to throw away the staples and duct tape. srsly)

I guess I need to get my ass in gear and start drawing again. @_@

Cinnimononononon. I wanna trade with you, so yeah. But I have no idea what.

Job? Yeah, still jobless. Trying to get my volunteer work so I don't have to pay $250 to the state for my speeding ticket. Whoooo. Trying to do the time at an animal shelter. <3

Uhm. Yeah that's really all I have to say. :\

Job: Need and Drawing: OMFG I need to do it again. My arts sucking.